11.25.2001 3.38 pm # and i fear i have nothing to give
in case you care, i have finally updated this page. i haven't had that much time to do so lately. our country is virtually at war, i'm a senior in high school; apart from world peace, i have a family and a job and schoolwork to worry about... i have my license now. i can't believe i haven't blogged or updated since i got my license. it seems like i've been driving forever now, like it's the most natural and vital part of my life, whereas six months ago i thought i'd be taking public transportation forever. on the other hand, i have to pay for gas, and i got a flat tire last weekend, so i owe my father $50 for a new tire... and i don't have any money. somehow it keeps disappearing faster than i earn it (which, incidentally, is not very fast, because i'm having trouble fitting hours at the bookstore in between schoolcommitmentscollegeappscollegevisitsfamilygatherings...). anyway, my more trivial problems are in my scribble, because i still think that the whole point of a diary is to write primarily about oneself. is that selfish? the point is, i'm feeling a little crushed... read the scribble. and if you miss me too much, read the blog at zero-chance.com. i do post there. occasionally.
10.11.2001 6.07 pm # my mind to me a kingdom is
well, mike doesn't like me. i'll explain in agonizing detail, later, in my scribble. for now the important thing is that he likes another girl, not me, and i'm just the eensiest bit jealous of the other girl (who, incidentally, i've never met).
i have been feeling quite melancholy lately. this isn't about mike, though. this is about a lot of things. this is about the fact that no guy i've ever liked has returned my sentiments, and it's not fair. i had a really nice dream last night about being in love with a guy and him loving me back. it wasn't any guy i know, it was a kind of blond guy with very short hair and glasses and he was wearing a sweater. and he was taller than me. if anyone sees the man who fits this description, let me know, he might be my soul mate or something. hah.
anyway, i'm slowly rebuilding the site in my (very little) spare time. the site was down for a few weeks; after sept. 11th i made this the splash page. i felt a bit dishearted and insignificant, so it never linked to anything. my new layout is pink for breast cancer awareness, yay. and there are less bitchy frames to deal with (well, bitchy for me to write, anyway), and the blog is here on the main page, and updates will go here as well. also, check out erin's communal diary type thing. me, erin, nikki, and... uh... whoever else erin wants to write in it. and a whole lotta craziness. yeah.
9.29.01 11.23 pm # wheee!
i'm just working on the website at this point. yes, the blog will appear here on my main page. aren't you excited? yeah. i'm too lazy to write anything significant here now. see the scribble, i guess.
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